Don't get me wrong, something feels different this time. CW is different from the managers of the past. He means business, he makes sure we play our way without concentrating or trying to stop the opposition (like warnock did) with negative tactics. With CW we play our way, something I have never really seen from Utd in my life (I'm 32). The only other team that played fluently and positively was Spackmans team before that dreaded day when Deane and Fjortoft were sold. Even when successful, the style of football and management/tactics concentrated on the opposition, if that makes sense. For me that's why we've never won or even scored in a playoff final.
With all that said, even with as much faith in this team and CW that I have, I cant help but reign it in and see it when I believe it. I'm scarred. In my entire life watching the blades we have lost every single "pinnacle" game. Relegated from prem on last day when it seemed impossible in early 90's, losing to Newcastle at old Trafford in FA Cup semi final, losing to Palace in play off final, losing to liverpool in league Cup semi, losing to arsenal at old Trafford (Graham poll, David seaman) FA Cup semi, losing to wolves at millennium stadium play off final, losing to Burnley playoff final, losing to Huddersfield playoff final, throwing away a point advantage over the pigs and them going up instead of us, losing to Hull FA Cup semi and relegated last game of prem season after tevez gate(not in cronilogical order).
My entire life supporting Utd has been plagued with huge disappointments. I mean... I've been to every playoff final and not even seen us score a goal other than in a failed penalty shoot out.
My point is, it feels different this time but I'm scarred from my entire life experience watching the red and white wizards. We always, as a fanbase, get ahead of ourselves and over confident and then get that Horrific come down and punch in the stomach.
I can't help but contain my emotions until we've got there. I don't want to feel that level level of disappointment again where I've been too confident so I just can't let myself believe it's happening until it happens.
Like I said, this time feels different. Wilder is a different animal and leader to anything we've had in the past and I think that we will do it. But, my scarred past, as a blade, is telling me that "it's Utd they always fall at the last hurdle, they always let me down, something always happens to eff it all up!".
Jesus, I'm fighting a Horrific internal battle of emotions! Just don't get carried away and think it's won. Ipswich have no pressure unlike us. (my dad was telling me about Utd getting relegated, back in the day (80's? ), with loads of games to go and going on a crazy run afterwards where they won something like 6 of the last 7). It won't be a walkover. Don't build yourself up to get let down again!
Wow, the emotions you go through supporting this football club.
One thing is for sure, I f**king live this club and that will never change.
UTB and bring on the Premier League (hopefully).
