I live in Spain and have done for a while, yet I still feel British - specifically, English - and all my familial ties are there. I do my best to assimilate into the culture of the place where I now live, but I remain British and I'm thankful that I have British citizenship.
At the risk of self-indulgent navel-gazing I've wondered why I have had zero feeling for the England football team for over a decade? There was a time I was as emotionally invested in it as most people but that's withered away to nothingness. I still like to see the England cricket team win, so what's different about football? I genuinely don't know.
I can't stand international football anyway. It's generally lacking in meaningful competition (something I imagine the Nations League was supposed to address) and interrupts domestic calendars unnecessarily for routine kick-ins against Andorra or San Marino, both of the Imperial Sunday League. Not one international side would win any of the major European leagues if it was an actual club side, so it's no longer the pinnacle of football achievement it might have been in the 1970s. I saw that Wales are in the top set of Nations League sides yet their team looks like something from the Championship being captained by an ex-pro.
We've even got twice as many European nations now just to water it down further thanks to the USSR, Yugoslavia, Czechoslovakia, Romania and Albania. But even that's not it, because people still get excited by it all, it's just that I don't, even though I used to when the football was pretty much equally dull and it was Emlyn Hughes fannying around at the back.
Although the success of any national sports team can give a nation something to get behind, something that unites everyone despite the many other things that divide us, why can't I care less about Team England? In fact, why on some occasions, like seeing last night's result, do I allow myself a wry smile from their abject failure? Something happened, but buggered if I know what it is. All answers, droll or abusive, will be considered, it's cheaper than therapy.