Before lockdown, before our recent poor performances, I'd always been very intrigued & interested in what being a fan, a supporter, a follower means to different people. (I even tried to write about it a bit for Dem Blades). Lockdown & Behind Closed Doors has brought my own fandom into sharp focus. And, partly, I don't like what I see in the mirror. The best way to describe it is - I've realised I'm not a Sheffield United Fan, I'm a Fan of going to watch Sheffield United play. I get a lot of enjoyment in going to games (particularly away games). Meeting people, particularly new people. Meeting opposition fans. Finding new pubs, new breweries. Ticking off new grounds. Seeing new places (pre season is superb for me). Watching my team play, big high if they win. Very level if they lose...on to next week. Lockdown has made me realise I've been selfishly using United as a structure around which I can have a good time. As someone who self identifies as a student of terrace culture, that's come as a bit of an eye opener to me. Football fans eh......