Hard to start tbh but i think anyone that is or has suffered with depression in its many forms first and foremost will find it difficult to explain the actual mechanics of it, the whys and werefores.
years ago i lost my arm in lets call it an accident, some might say a physical disability is reason enough to be depressed but in my case and i'd hazard in quite a few others case's this is not the be all and end all, the root cause of depression.
i personally look around and thank god im not for instance blind, as i find losing a limb far easier to cope with and adapt to than many, many other problems (crazyblade my hat comes off to you for coping so admirably in the face of such adversity)
but i digress, to me who contrary to most peoples belief that suicide is "the easy way out" find the idea of taking my own life unthinkable when others at times would have gladly done it for me, a life i have fought to keep intact and tho i have had many bouts of depression i cannot come to terms with how or why anyone would contemplate such a final insult to the loved ones around you.
depression is as been stated a black hole full of anger, loathing and every other possible negative thought about ones self or in truth the world in general at times and the worst part is people that have no comprehension of the internal mental destruction depression brings saying such meaningless platitudes as "pull yourself together, its not that bad".
let me tell you catagorically (pardon my language) IT FUCKING IS THAT BAD and infinately worse, but to explain why it is i find it impossible to put into coherant words, as for speedo, people are sayin with money, fame etc how could he commit suicide, well tho i personally would never consider it i can understand the logic behind some peoples belief that it is the only way and i wouldnt dare to hazard a guess as to what may have drove such a driven man to such a devastating and horrible end.
if it was a hidden depression then like some on here i can understand it, kinda but i cannot say in truth no matter what his possibly hidden problems were i can agree with how he approached tackling whatever demons he had, but considering how driven he was during his career, anyone not understanding how devastating depression can be should take heed of this semmingly happy, successful and driven man and say there but for the grace of god walk i and be a little more tolerant of other peoples problems.
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MunXy
years ago i lost my arm in lets call it an accident, some might say a physical disability is reason enough to be depressed but in my case and i'd hazard in quite a few others case's this is not the be all and end all, the root cause of depression.
i personally look around and thank god im not for instance blind, as i find losing a limb far easier to cope with and adapt to than many, many other problems (crazyblade my hat comes off to you for coping so admirably in the face of such adversity)
but i digress, to me who contrary to most peoples belief that suicide is "the easy way out" find the idea of taking my own life unthinkable when others at times would have gladly done it for me, a life i have fought to keep intact and tho i have had many bouts of depression i cannot come to terms with how or why anyone would contemplate such a final insult to the loved ones around you.
depression is as been stated a black hole full of anger, loathing and every other possible negative thought about ones self or in truth the world in general at times and the worst part is people that have no comprehension of the internal mental destruction depression brings saying such meaningless platitudes as "pull yourself together, its not that bad".
let me tell you catagorically (pardon my language) IT FUCKING IS THAT BAD and infinately worse, but to explain why it is i find it impossible to put into coherant words, as for speedo, people are sayin with money, fame etc how could he commit suicide, well tho i personally would never consider it i can understand the logic behind some peoples belief that it is the only way and i wouldnt dare to hazard a guess as to what may have drove such a driven man to such a devastating and horrible end.
if it was a hidden depression then like some on here i can understand it, kinda but i cannot say in truth no matter what his possibly hidden problems were i can agree with how he approached tackling whatever demons he had, but considering how driven he was during his career, anyone not understanding how devastating depression can be should take heed of this semmingly happy, successful and driven man and say there but for the grace of god walk i and be a little more tolerant of other peoples problems.
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MunXy
