Maybe it's my age or just because over 30 odd years you just get used to it, but I didn't go on Saturday, have to wait until Chessy next week which I'm still looking forward to, I saw the half time score and decided to go out and have a bottle of wine instead. Came back and just did that short weary laugh, the one I've done many times over the years when you feel let down and resigned. It's the letting yourself get optimistic and excited in pre-season, this is going to be our year (again), a new manager, one we actually wanted, a positive approach and then the big let down. I don't get as angry about it as some and I refuse to let it ruin my weekend. I still think Adkins is the best we could have got and I still have faith, but you do wonder, I can't help wonder why we have spent £500k on a striker I think we could have done without, or at least I think there were much bigger priorities such as a commanding CB or 2, a good keeper and possibly a commanding mid centre too. That's where we were lacking as was plain to see by anyone who attended last season, but then I thought, this manager knows what he's doing, perhaps he'll get the existing players playing better, with more discipline and organisation in defence, that's what he'll be working on in pre-season I told myself, the manager surely knows best, but after Gillingham, just one of many teams that will lump it in the box and try to bully us (and now even more will follow suit), it just makes you wonder, surely the management team knew what to expect? We've got Morgs for chrissake, one of the chief proponents in the dark arts of defending and I just think, what have they been doing on the training ground or is it that the players can't follow simple instructions? This team can play, we beat good teams in the cups last season, we played well and beat Preston in the league last season, they CAN do it. They defended well at Spurs in the cup despite giving away a penalty, they hadn't really looked like scoring against us until then so they CAN do it. I'll be there next week hoping Gillingham was a bad day at the office, a blip.